It's horrible how every summer gets more and more boring every year, sometimes there's fun things to do here and there but not not much >.< and school's almost here, i actually cant wait to see my friends and see my new classes ^_^.. excited! lol and who knows.. maybe there's a new gay, bi or curious at the school this year -hopeful-
I am so lonely, no bf, friends and family, of course, are around.. but I still feel lonely.. I desire to be in a guys arms.. to be held, loved.. who knows.. i feel so lost in ohio..
any guy i start to like.. ends up being far way or something else..
no can be in mansfield that is gay, single and good looking.. T_T
It has been so long since i've been on here.. and yah.. alot has changed lol a whole lot.. over the past year i lost my virginity and falling for guys..of course.. still hasnt been so easy... but right now im crushing on this guy.. his name is Chirs..and im pretty sure it'll work out
This 'l' word (love) is evil..>.< rejection, heartbreak, hate, etc. its so hard to live with...its hard to explain most of it but its prolly cause since my bf, Carlisle, broke up with me and the person i like...Fred...the thing between me and him..basically sucks at the moment...i love being held by him and i love holding him and i love kissing him and...i just plain out love him..hes everything i want and everything i seem to care about...everything i do reminds me of him and its so hard and alll this otehr shit happening comes down like weight..weighing me down and crushing every bone in my body...i really dont know what to do anymore...it seems like everything i can or want to do...doesnt work...={
i go out with my bf Carlisle who is sad and is still stuck on his ex, Steven and im starting to like someone else...that is bothered by the age difference..and i guess he likes me too....
Summer vacation almost ending, school almost here
-hopeful-
<---join join join join ~^-^~
Content
Miserable
Attraction
Confused
